I just read ebbie's blog, and im listening to the song she mentioned cause it was mixed in with the haruhi soundtrack I finished downloading. Yuki, Muon, Madobe Nite. Its pretty cool. I love Koi no mikuru densetsu. Its so funny xD. Mikuru is such as spaz.
Right something thats been bugging me. One week is up of the 2 for easter break. And then we go back to college for [i dont know how long] a matter of weeks I think. In that time i want to make at least one new friend, i know it sounds fucking juvenile and i should have a solid set of friends at this point in my life but i just dont. I pretty much have Ebbie and Simon. I love them both, theyre awesome. But everyone else, as horrible as it sounds, are just seeming like background characters.
Theres a small group of people at my college, different people, who are interested in other things, amazing things. But its a group of people ive never been able to mix into. There are like 5 of them, ive spoken to 2, the first person, is amazing, but i think i gave the impression that i didnt want to talk to her, cause im all shy and suck at social situations and havnt spoken to her since. The other one, actually said "nick hates me" because whenever i see him, i do that shy recluse thing and sort of laugh saying hi. it pisses me off that i can put together a simple "hey howre you? and get a conversation going. The only way i feel i know them is the 'friend of a friend' scenario.
Enough about that though. Regina Spektor album just finished downloading so i think im gonna go listen to that in bed. Im not eating anymore chocolate, im eating healthy from now on. this is where i sound stupid and superficial, ready? ok so i saw my brother today, my brother, as much as a dick as he is, has had a massive influence on how i dress, what music i listen to, my hair, my diet, all that stuff while we were growing up. I saw him for the first time in a while today and i was shocked. Hes cut all his hair off [bald], he was wearing scruffy baggy clothes, and hes put on LOADS of weight. i know it sounds horrible to point it out but its an obvious observation.
That kinda scared me. Cause ive always been concious about my weight, even though im under weight. the idea of being any bigger than i am now, scares the shit out of me. Ive started putting on weight, i know its healty, and i need to but oh my god its fucking scary. i dont like it one bit. so im gonna start excercising. Hopfully to put on muscle weight rather than, fat weight.
Thats enough of my rambles i think. I miss Ebbie, Simon, Damo, Joe, Kerry and James already.
P.S. who remember this guy? Cyprien. <3
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