Go away.

Today has been terrible/good.

Okay, so this thing happened and it really pissed me off and i mean really pissed me off to the point where i was so fucking angry i had to go out the art room, i wandered off up to sixth form where i ended up going to the toilets and throwing up. Lovely. I dont know why it pissed me off so much, it was just like '(this event happened)' and then my body just completely rejected everything about it. and it ended up with me feeling like shite.

I went back to photography and started back on with my work in the darkroom, on my own. Half an hour passed and i went to go get the rest of my work. Turns out, my fucking teacher has lost half of my exam work. Its tuesday. My final piece needs to be in on friday.

Things start to pick up from here. I went over to the theatre to meet laura and bekky, they had a performance studies exam so i said i would come and watch and film theirs. It was amazing, seriously the atmosphere was insane. It kind of inspired me cause i thought everything was amazing about what they just did, but as soon as the people in each group walked off they were saying things like "that was shit" "this went wrong" "it was terrible".
That shocked me. That the tiniest thing i didnt even notice pissed them off that much, some even to the point of crying.

After i watched everyones performances i walked down to the bus stop to go home. I was listening to Attics to Eden all the way back. that calmed me down alot but because i was on an empty but and it was deahtly quite i started thinking about loads of things and i started getting pissed off at everything.

Today all in all has been pretty fucking bizzare in the sense that i dont seem to have any sort of control over my emotions anymore.

Shit day.


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