Such Great Heights

So my shoulder is still hurting.

I think it's about time for a meaningful blog cause all I ever post is bullshit.

I'm starting to get stressed out again at my lack of friends. I don't know what it is, I think i'm just one of those people whose not meant to have loads of friends. I want to be out of the house with people, doing things, not sitting at home on MSN and facebook and all these stupid things. It really gets me that I pretty much have only one person I can hang out with. If Ebbie can't do anything then thats it. Me on my own. I can't call James cause he's constantly working. I hardly talk to Joe anymore and Damo's at the gym every other day. and half the time I can't afford to get over to Kirkby in the first place.
I'm just finishing up on my CV, i'm thinking that if I can get a job some new people might come into my life and I can actually start acting like a normal 18 year old. You know, going out to town at the weekend, staying at peoples houses, maybe even getting back into looking for a relationship. I don't know, its all these fucking juvenile things that I constantly hang onto that make me feel that I can't get anywhere in life.
It sounds stupid but youtube and dailybooth are partly to blame. I see all these people out and about with all these friends doing things i've never even imagned. and their my age or even younger!
I don't think i've ever wanted a job more in my life. I don't think i've ever wanted to move out of my parent's house more in my life. I want a new life. I want to go to Confetti, meet new people, become closer to the people in my life now, and just get on with my future. I'm fed up of acting like a fucking child and being treated like one.


Wow, I don't know where that came from but there you go. I'm off to bed now cause my neck is still killing me.

Good night! x