Fumes

I'm feeling rather shite to be quite honest.

I just got back from town, I went in to hand CV's out but not one place I went to would accept it, they either said "We aren't taking applications" or "Try again nearer to christmas". It pissed me off so I went and bought some new clothes, as you do. Because I remember a time when all I used to buy was clothes, I kinda miss that.
So after wandering around on my own for a while I though "Fuck it" and came home. I was meant to meet up with Ebbie but she wasn't feeling well and had to cancel and James was at work so he couldn't come down.

Lacking in friends, I has it.

I don't know what to do with the rest of my day now. I'm tempted to put my camera on charge and have a walk down to the river trent and go film some stuff and take photos. That usually makes me feel better. But then again, same problem, i'd be on my own. I was hoping that today I would walk into some shop, offer my cv and get a job there and then, so I had some way of actually meeting new people from Nottingham. It bugs me that my closest friend, physically and metaphorically is 15 miles away at the least. I've ranted about this before.

I'm starting to think that once I get to confetti everything will get better, but to be honest i'm not convinced, I think i'm gonna be that weird kid, that has no friends, works on his own, doesn't talk to anyone. Yeah that fits my description pretty much.

I just wish I wasn't so fucking childish and I could actually have an adult conversation with someone. Yet, I find myself yearning for the times I had in lower school. Not a care in the world.



I'm in one of those mood's where EVERYTHING pisses me off, the traffic going by my window is pissing me off but I can't close my window or it will be too warm, every song in my iTunes is pissing me off.


I don't know what i'm gonna do once I post this, probably just float around on the internet for a while then head out. It's better than being sat here.


bye